When Presence is Gone and You're Lost in Your Mind

A thought for today from Eckhart Tolle as a reminder of how easily we become lost in our minds and forget our "Self".

Sometimes a thought has a magnetic pull, as if it wants more of your consciousness. It wants to grow, because it's a little entity. It wants attention and it tries to get it in subtle ways. It might even use a bodily feeling. "I'm hungry suddenly." Then presence is gone, and you're gone, looking for a restaurant in your mind...

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Take A Leap of Faith and Never Look Back - There's Nothing Worth Seeing

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A Lucid Dream

I had a flash of insight during a lucid dream one night after watching the movie Inception.

In the dream, I was sitting on a sparkling white horse - my totem animal in real life - in the midst of a muddy, tumbling, raging river infested with crocodiles and it's at that point that my lucid dreaming started. In other words I "woke up".

My trusty steed crushed the head of the nearest monster croc and that made the others glide away in fear. We then  leapt up onto a ledge of ruined houses of out harms way.

My Vantage Point

I was so glad to be safe from my vantage point up above because when I looked down below at the raging river waters and monsters, I was stumped for what to do next. There was nowhere to go from the ledge except across a yawning, bottomless-seeming depth in front of me.

How the hell was I going to get over there? It seemed uncrossable from the ruins where we stood but I had to get over there, somehow.

My Leap of Faith

I had to take that leap of faith because I had no other choice. I could not stay stuck up there. It looked impossible and I had no wings, so I let go and allowed my horse to take charge.

He (his name is private) leapt into the air and I, like the coward I am, closed my eyes and held on. The ride seemed to take an awful long time so I had to open my eyes to see.  We were in mid-air and my horse had grown wings on its hooves; now how fly is that!

My flash of Insight

                     Image by uwelino After we gently landed on the other side on a green and flowering hillside with a modern metropolis down below (dreams are quite elastic eh), I tried turning around to look behind me but I could not.

It was as if all I had left behind (my past) was unimportant, gone. It had no shape, smell or substance. It seemed to have become illusory.

Sure, I could imagine what was back there because I had lived it and I could add on a lot more crapola and really turn the screw on myself as all we masochistic humans do but it would still only be in my head.

The fact was that my particular trials had ended - I left it behind by taking that leap of faith - and looking back served no purpose at all. It was a waste of time.

What do you think? Have you had dreams like this or insights which really "woke" you up? Do tell.

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Satisfying My Real Hunger for Solace - Silence, Music, Breathwork and Nature

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I had another epiphany this morning then ended up listening to a channelled meditation and interestingly enough, it was about abundance.

My emotional disarray

When I feel I am in an emotional disarray as I call it, I eat more than I normally do then beat myself up saying shite like I should stop spending money on food I do not need and cannot afford to waste cash like that.

Now, I normally eat once or twice a day (and don't get any ideas that I'm slim and trim - I'm not - my body is just not as fat as it used to be) so when I find myself eating three meals a day it is too much for me and it makes me feel heavier than my extra nine kilos (20 pounds) - that bugs the hell out of me.

Of course, the emotional eating is always linked to my unfulfilled desires, frustration and low funds. It all spells lack of abundance thinking and results in a low cash flow. That is a significant aha! moment right there people!

Excess eating cannot fill the void

Another aha! moment occurred when I realised that I believed that it was because of my lack of cash that I should not be spending i.e. wasting money on food I do not need being fully aware that the excess eating could not fill the void (hunger) that I felt.

I never saw until that moment that my emotional eating and low cash flow always occurred together. Better said would be my fuckuptedness makes me look at the money I have and think it is not enough and as you know, when a thought like that takes hold it results in exactly what you believe to be true!

Only silence, sometimes music and breathing in and out while surrounded by nature stills the noise and satisfies my hunger for solace. That is when I understand the damage I am doing to myself and it stop. Nice eh.

Poverty consciousness

Like most adults, I inherited my poverty consciousness and fear of not having enough money to take care of myself from my mother and those around her because of course, she attracted people with the same vibrational energy as her own.

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I have been battling this disturbing feeling for years because I knew it was not normal for me until I understood one day that I needed to grasp the "why" of it in order to untangle myself from its coils because any thing you fight usually wins. Please remember this.

I began the process - can't say when exactly - and it is a work in progress. This is the latest piece of the puzzle.

It is not about the money!

Anyway, this piece slotted itself into place when I realised with great shock that the money I was spending on  meals - always healthy which is a huge change for me - was never the issue. How the hell could I have missed that... but I did.

I know this may seem obvious to some but when you are living it you do not see the trees anymore because you are in the forest and thus the self-flagellation continues.

Anyway, my favourite 'Professor' Bob Proctor said in one of his books, it is not about the money and he was right; it has never been about the money.

Money is only incidental to what I am living now. The issue is lack of abundance thinking which results in no money.

The sticky maze

I have been suffering the fires of the damned because I hate feeling that my life is out of control, that what I want is unattainable and I cannot seem to find my way out of this sticky maze.

Either I decide to allow my vibrational escrow to manifest itself or I live paycheck to paycheck continually underpaid due to the economic climate. In other words, I need the job but I got to be me, real as real can be an most people do not like or appreciate that but what the hell.

Since this is so glaring, how come I did not see it till this morning. I guess I was ready...

Enough with the sturm und drang

After living through two nights of stinging wasp attacks (in dreams) and a mosquito invasion under the covers (not a bite next morning) and sweating bullets like a horse on wonderfully cool nights, it was time to stop the crap. I let go.

You have to take a step back, be honest with yourself and observe instead of participating in the constant sturm und drang (storm and stress) that we inflict upon ourselves.

And that is how I ended up taking some quiet time out with some trees at my back and listening to some wonderful channelled music.

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Empower Yourself - Make Changes in Your Life That You Desire

         Soul flower by AlicePopkorn My thought for the day for a fabulous start to the week is about your soul's desires - stop ignoring the urge to change! Yes, it is scary, terrifying even but it is more powerful than you or I.

I think this new decade is all about following that urge that we have been stifling for decade and let it take charge. You already know what you want and thought it may seem easier said than done, that is just our left brain, logical self talking with the ego hard-wired in to keep us safe and thus make no changes.

Ignore it - empower youself and take charge of your life today!

We can feel purposeful and empowered when we become clear about our life's direction. Any dissatisfaction we feel about our lives can express itself as irritability or restlessness. If we can take time to explore these feelings and identify their underlying case, we can begin making different choices to improve our circumstances.

We begin to feel empowered because we have a purpose and our restlessness disappears. Explore any uncomfortable feelings you have today, and you can empower yourself to make the changes in your life that you desire. DailyOM

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