The conclusion of my saga with Julie whom I let suck my energy and briefly jeopardize my future earnings. All because I was in a bad place emotionally when I met her. So this is my ego story.
By the time I left her I was exhausted. She invited me to her daughter's recital the next morning and that night I felt such a tightness in my stomach, I knew it was connected to her; and I also knew that I shouldn't go to her daughter's 'do' at all. But I went anyway.
I so wanted to help her by giving her two important affirmations for her self-esteem and the telephone number of an excellent psychologist that I knew.
Anyway, I get to the place only to discover that it was a some kind of religious get together. I was furious at being set up. For me religion is brain-washing and she knew this; so why the setup?
All of those damn overdressed Africans with a few Swiss sprinkled in made me feel very uncomfortable. But I so wanted to give her the information for her to help herself and so, pissed off as I was, I waited. Yes, I suckered myself.
By the time I got home I felt completely destabilized and couldn't think clearly or relax. So I went to my favourite cafe for coffee, croissants and pain au chocolat and ended up staying for brunch. Yup, food is my cure all at times like these.
Later, I went to an ATM for some cash and that's when it happened. I was so spaced out, I withdrew too much money from my business account set up to cover a very important wire transfer.
Do you know when I remembered that damn wire transfer? The following afternoon, and noon was the payment deadline! Negative forces were at work and I'd felt it the night before but didn't pay close attention. I let myself be drawn in and it screwed up my head.
I'm putting this story out there to illustrate that we must never, ever ignore our feelings. They are never wrong. Always put your own needs first! And I have to accept that not everyone is capable of everything, and some people prefer to feel sorry for themselves, eternally, and suck other people's energy.
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By the time I left her I was exhausted. She invited me to her daughter's recital the next morning and that night I felt such a tightness in my stomach, I knew it was connected to her; and I also knew that I shouldn't go to her daughter's 'do' at all. But I went anyway.
I so wanted to help her by giving her two important affirmations for her self-esteem and the telephone number of an excellent psychologist that I knew.
Anyway, I get to the place only to discover that it was a some kind of religious get together. I was furious at being set up. For me religion is brain-washing and she knew this; so why the setup?
All of those damn overdressed Africans with a few Swiss sprinkled in made me feel very uncomfortable. But I so wanted to give her the information for her to help herself and so, pissed off as I was, I waited. Yes, I suckered myself.
By the time I got home I felt completely destabilized and couldn't think clearly or relax. So I went to my favourite cafe for coffee, croissants and pain au chocolat and ended up staying for brunch. Yup, food is my cure all at times like these.
Later, I went to an ATM for some cash and that's when it happened. I was so spaced out, I withdrew too much money from my business account set up to cover a very important wire transfer.
Do you know when I remembered that damn wire transfer? The following afternoon, and noon was the payment deadline! Negative forces were at work and I'd felt it the night before but didn't pay close attention. I let myself be drawn in and it screwed up my head.
I'm putting this story out there to illustrate that we must never, ever ignore our feelings. They are never wrong. Always put your own needs first! And I have to accept that not everyone is capable of everything, and some people prefer to feel sorry for themselves, eternally, and suck other people's energy.
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