Time To Forgive and Forget Those Who Hurt Me

Today, it's time to tell my forgive and forget story about the men in my life who have hurt me so terribly by their disrespect; their lack of care and attention to me as a human being.

It's time to forgive and forget the unknown man of my mother's family who raped me anally when I was three. It's time to forgive and forget my stepfather who raped me when I was eleven; that shy, innocent, and fragile child who lived in her own world.

It's time to forgive the the men on the Swiss streets who make it clear without fear that they consider us women of colour to be ignorant, illiterate, an easy lay or a lay for pay.
It's time to forgive those two men who violated me decades ago and put to rest the intolerance and anger that I feel towards men. It's time to recognize that I moved on a long time ago but I'm still clinging to an old schema because I know nothing else.


It's time to stop trying to pick off the scab that I can't find anymore; it's indelible. It's time to stop finding reasons to lash out at the men I see, they've never done anything to me. I invited the disrespect intrinsic in them which part of their culture, with my angry vibrations.
 
I moved on a few years ago from that lost, lonely, hurt and destroyed little girl. I see her now, hear her insecurities and love and cherish her but I am not her.

As I've learned from Martha Beck's Four-Day Win, I pay attention (most times) when I hear her scared little voice and I say "may you be well, may you be happy, may you be free from suffering."

It is time for me to say and send this message out in the ether, gentlemen, I forgive you all for being who you are and acting as you did and still do. Most importantly, I forgive myself.

You have all made me so much stronger. And besides, not only am I better than you, I've got bigger balls too!

And that people, was my forgive and forget story. I'm learning to love myself totally now.

Thank you!




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