Life Is For Living: Forgive and Forget and Surrender to Love: Forgiveness Pays, Big Time

I am writing this post because of Ann Naylor's article - a lovely, lovely American lady living in France who blogs on the Huffington Post Living Page - Forgiveness in Marriage leads to Intimacy.

My forgiveness story started in February 2009 and ended mid-October 2009. I have erased forty years of hurt by forgiving all those who hurt me, one by one.

Most importantly, I forgave myself and said "I'm sorry" to those I hurt over the years as they came mind. It is time to forgive and forget and surrender to love and move on.

Here's how this story went.

No job, no money and lots of fear

My money problems started in autumn 2008 and came to a head in February 2009. I act "as if" everything is my responsibility so I accepted the blame for everything that went wrong. It was extremely destabilizing for my ego.

I could not find a part-time job either - nothing to do with the recession which is mentally created through fear. Because I am very, very good at what I do, I did not understand what the hell was going on, and everything kept getting worse.

I finally realised that my problem was "me". My "lack" mentality and feelings of fear and deprivation were drowning me; and all the while I had a nice smiling "front" going. My dreams were coming fast and furious too with bad news.

2009 - the year of difficulty and change

In desperation I contacted a well-known and gifted numerologist for help because I was in a complete fog. I am the type of person who can always find a solution to any problem, so you can understand my terror at not being able to think.

I discovered that 2009 is a year of change for me - number 8 - which includes legal and financial difficulties (I was sued and received an eviction notice as well). I said fine and... Change was up to me and I had to act. If I did not, the disaster zone called my life would continue into 2010.

Dealing with the immediate problem - my emotional blockage

So I muddled along for a bit with no clear plan. Then decided to deal with the immediate problem - the gut-wrenching fear - which was blocking everything else.

That is when I discovered Emotional Freedom Techniques (EFT), and it all took off from there. Tools appeared when I needed them. And every one of them was free. That is what I said I needed because I was broke!

After being submerged time and again by a tsunami of emotions and old memories over the past nine months, I am now free of them all. Gone are the days and nights of pain from my mother's ultimate betrayal of the child, and other destructive schemas which I do not need to describe.

Forgiveness pays - forgive those who hurt you, and forgive yourself

I have forgiven everyone who hurt me, and those whom I hurt as well. Every one of them was my teacher. The love I feel for myself is deep and abiding, absolutely nurturing and my heart is larger than the ocean. And it is bright. This is what happens when you forgive and forget and surrender to love.

There are no clouds anywhere on my horizon. I smile inside now and my cells respond with a delicious tingle. I smile wide at myself in the mirror.

I kiss myself on the hand just to show my appreciation for me. Every day in every way, I am getting better, better and better. Someone else said that first.

Yes, the process is hard and extremely painful and you experience incredible, debilitating setbacks which are not truly setbacks. However, there is no choice! It is the only way to let your love shine.

Forgive and surrender to that deep well-spring of love that is within you. Nothing can ever hurt you after that. As a consequence, you will regain your health and vitality which were corroded from harbouring those toxic emotions. Forgiveness pays, big time.

You are the only one who matters

Keep in mind that forgiveness has nothing to do with the other person. That is why they do not have to be present when you pardon them. It is the letting go that matters.

Psychically, they will feel the release but probably would not know what it is. When you forgive someone, you free yourself and that person as well.

Most importantly, you must also forgive yourself.

You are the only one who matters. It is irrelevant what others feel or think about you. It is important that you get this. If you want to love, share love, give love and make love, there is only one way to go. You must be love. Forgiveness pays, big time!

My forgiveness story is now over. I have turned the page and I am starting a new life story, creating it the way I want it. It is time to let my light shine.